i woke up early this morning, mourning the way i live my life. i strife and fight for what i want, but somehow things never get done. i hate who i have become, i seek an asylum for refuge, and yet the pain aint reduced one bit, yea i bet you.
i bit my lips as i prayed for help. cuz of all of this pain, i have even forgotten my name! underneath this facade, is a boy who wants a go-kart, to speed off outta his head so he can go to bed. cuz his mind's so messed up, its more chaotic than a pub.
i just wanna be myself, take off this mask and chuck it on a shelf. so i can be myself! so i can be myself!
no more facades, yea, no more bottling my feelings, so i can become a whole new being. a whole new...being...
some lyrics i came up with while listening to eminem on my ipod.. abt how i'd like to be myself. maybe i am myself.. just that i havnt been "myself" for so long that ive become a whole new self. the way i'd describe myself 6 months ago compared to how i'd describe myself has changed to drastically... all the feelings i bottle up they are so many that they can fill up the entire ocean. i know of friends to share my thoughts with but have u ever wondered how heavy that much bottles is? some of these bottles i have never seen before.. these new emotions never felt before. i cant even express how i feel anymore... just bottles..im a cupboard.. locked up with heaps of bottles inside my doors.
this post might sound stupid.. so forgive me.. lack of sleep due to world cup which led to my grumpy mood... anyway, im going to bed soon so i can stay awake to watch the match later so take care everyone!
