dreams.. are they meant to be achieved? do we hav to constantly fool ourselves into thinking that we might one day attain our dreams if we work hard enough? persevere through all the shit in our lives just because of the tiny ray of hope that maybe one day these dreams would become a reality. Arent dreams afterall almost impossible to be achieved? knowing this, why do we still continue to tolerate all the rubbish in our lives just to try to reach these dreams...?
i had an extremely wonderful dream 2 nights ago, but yes its a dream.... hence its bitter sweet. although it was merely a dream, it gave me hope, helped to make my day bearable considering all the crap i had to go through over the weekend...for those who dont know, i got into a quarrel with my mom and all my plans for the weekend fell apart.. so i basically had to spend heaps of time at home.. with my crazy mom. but yea, the day was still bearable, i even foolishly hoped that the dream would continue if i went back to bed... i ended up lazing around in bed untill lunch time.
i guess, dreams work well for me, works like a carrot on a stick i suppose? lets me hope against hope for miracles to happen. so.. i find myself here... writing this cuz ive been lazing around in bed for too long and yet i cant seem to fall asleep... trying to go to sleep so i hav a chance of having a sweet dream again. its highly unlike me to want to sleep... im the sort of person who sleeps no more than 7 hrs a day.
sry if u think that im talking garbage for this entry.. but yes, this IS how much a tiny little dream impacted me.
relatively shorter entry tonight.. going to try to catch my dreams again. this entry might not make sense... but im not obliged to make sense.. so what the heck
