before the exams started.. my mom kept nagging oh how little i studied... now after exams, shes nagging abt how im not reading enough newspapers...are all parents in the world like that? always have to find something to me disatisfied about? always finding a reason to buzz around your ear?
well.. i dunno y but recently ive been feeling very down, nth much to look forward to. the things i look forward to endup causing me more pain. eg after exams... i thought thr wud b class outing or something.. end up the whole class dissappeared after i turned ard to throw rubbish away! den on friday half day... sudden change of plans ruined things. although an "outing" still occurred.. its not the same, not quite what i was looking forward to. i dont even look forward to going home anymore. in the past, i'd rush home immedietly after school so i can get to play com... but now since ive quit gaming, dun really know what to do with my spare time. been watching some anime / movies recently but i still feel quite bored and empty.
the thought of my examination results might hav contributed to the melancholy thats in the air around me. the lack of things to do is simply giving me more time to think about stupid things... giving me more time to worry about things i should simply leave in the hands of fate. on a brighter note, i passed my chinese!!! that was extremely unexpected! but then again... i have the upcoming A'level chinese orals to "look forward to" this wednesday...
these days, it seems that sitcoms are now one of the few things that can put me in a better mood... laughter is the best medicine yea. friends, joey, that70'sshow, my name is earl are some of the things i get to look forward to! maybe laughing at the stupidity of some of the characters takes my mind off my own stupidity
i used to avoid "sad songs".. but somehow im getting hooked onto them too... getting introduced to so many sad songs by ppl. the thing i like about yellowcard is how they can make a song with sad lyrics seem happy! something like making the best outta everything. i wish i could do the same, then i wouldnt feel the way i am now.
Love of mine some day you will die But I'll be close behind I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white Just our hands clasped so tight Waiting for the hint of a spark If Heaven and Hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark
In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black And I held my tongue as she told me "Son fear is the heart of love" So I never went back
If Heaven and Hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark You and me have seen everything to see From Bangkok to Calgary And the soles of your shoes are all worn down The time for sleep is nowIt's nothing to cry about Cause we'll hold each other soon The blackest of rooms
If Heaven and Hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark Then I'll follow you into the dark
I Will Follow You Into The Dark ~ Death Cab For Cutie
a friend of mine said she cried listening to this song... but yea its stuck in my head now. dont think its a good thing to get a "sad song" stuck in ur head... SO! anyone who knows any nice and "happy" songs, plz do tell me!!!
i know im beginning to sound like an emo nutcase.. but maybe its juz withdrawal symptoms from not playing com... I CANT HELP IT! bear with me =(
