ive been so stressed out recently.. usually i cant be bothered about school work. but the past week, i was rather serious in my work because of the maths test that we had yesterday. ive been failing all my previous maths tests and exams and this test had a huge weightage so i actually studied considerably hard for the test. i dont know how well i faired just yet.. that stupid MI question.. no summation sign i completely panicked and dunno where to start.
well, my face has gotten super duper red since tuesday.. adding to the stress.. and stress worsens it so im stuck in this vicious cycle of stress! im hoping this get better for me over the next few days.. no more tests to worry about and i can relax. so... anyone wanna do anything this weekend? =P. didnt do anything much today since i got home, spent my time checking my mail.. reading fanfic, watching TV and listening to music. kind of killing time now.. waiting for "lost" to start.
quite a couple of weeks ago, my GP class came across an essay qn abt "modern man looking for happiness in all the wrong places", it has got me thinking quite a bit. my view on this question is that ppl nowadays are aiming for something they dont quite understand. the journey to happiness is filled with trials, but is what we finally attain after clearing all these tests really happiness? aren't theses "happiness" often images given to us by the media or by our society? do we truely know whether or not we will be happy after reaching our target. like now.. as students, we are constantly trying to attain good results. good results -> good job -> good pay -> good life? but what exactly defines a good life? my definition of a good life is a life where i wont look back and regret my actions or decisions.
sometimes, the "happiness" that we are trying to achieve are so hard to reach that we have to climb great heights to even get close to reaching them. but what happens when we fail to reach these "happiness"? we fall. and due to the height we have climbed.. the fall hurts, real bad. well... something like that happened to me recently, now im stuck here reminiscing about the past, thinking how i could have done things differently... not as if its going to change the past but at least i can reflect upon it.. try to learn from it.
anyway.. all this reminiscing is making me depressed... im going 2 listen to some "cheerful" music to brighten up my mood. gnite
