HOLIDAYS have finally arrived!!! Actually its nothing much to be happy about.. still got PW and A'level Chinese. PW, as always is such a pain in the ass and Chinese?!? Im not even going to comment on chinese... just glad that i wont hav to bother about chinese any more after this coming friday!
I have been having trouble sleeping again the past few days since my dad went overseas. My mom is afraid to sleep alone.. thus sharing the room with me. I really cant sleep with her in my room.. couple of stuff have been on my mind lately too, together they have kept me from my sleep. Over thursday and friday, i slept for a total of 5 hours.. looked like a panda. Thankfully i managed to sleep well last night.. however had a really weird dream. I dreamt that i was stuck underneath a building that collapsed... amidst the rubble was a door that led to some high security place with people dressed like agent smith from the matrix... Black jacket sunglasses n everything! Anyway i woke up when i got discovered by one of those "agents".
What happens when u misjudge a person? Someone u thought u understood does something that you would never imagine them doing. Can i no longer trust my sense of judgement? Have i misjudged any other people... am i even the person i think i am? Some stupid issue has caused me to become rather moody..
I finally got my haircut earlier today.. i dont like it.. i find it too short.. T.T
)x~
8:16 PM
{{ Monday, October 23, 2006
What can i say other than "I HATE PW!!", actually that was more of a scream. Spent almost the entire past week doing WR/OP... Anyway, tomorrow is hari raya so holiday but i still have to worry about PW again! This time its I&R that i have to worry about.. thank god its only 500 words, shudnt take too long to do.
The sun only shines when you whisper into my ear, because you are the only thing i will ever call dear. You hold the key to open my door, but you only come to me when your life is a bore. Driving around town aimlessly, listening to the roads' symphony. I am always by your side whenever you need me, but im only beside you when you're not too glee You take me for granted, but to me you are still always wanted. I'd travel miles for you, but for my feelings you dont have a clue. Step on my pedels,hear my engines roar, My language is your music,Our words just dont click, I wish i could make you understand, but i really dont have a plan...
Two years down the road, when im no longer the latest fad. Will you still hold my key, or give it away for a fee. Trade me away if you may, but it certainly will break your day. Because im your red sports car, the only one who would call you "Tsar".
Red Sports Car~)x~
Ok.. im feeling bored and a little emo so i gave writing poems a shot. I havnt done any "creative writing" in a long time so i hope this poem aint too bad! I had the intention of writing it such that it is open to multiple interpretations.. but somehow some of what i wanted to say got lost somewhere...Once again let me mention that i am not obliged to make sense! Try sueing me for bad poetry, u wont win =)
)x~
10:02 PM
{{ Friday, October 20, 2006
Just got back my promo results today, wouldnt say it was too bad... neither was it good. I passed everything... BDDDE.. but combined with terms etc i think i will fail math. My parents are going to kill me for sure if i fail math.. might as well do it myself n commit suicide 1st, kidding! But im not kidding abt the part whr my parents will kill me.
Finished my OP practise session today too.. apparently i can change into more colours den a chameleon according to the teacher... change colours not in the sense of character or personality (phew) but in a more literal sense... she said that my lips and face tend to change colour very easily.
The past couple of days, ive been busy with my OP, effectively keeping my mind off my results. It kept my mind busy, however after OP presentation today morning, i had several more hours of "free time" for me to worry about my results so i ended up quite @.@ kuku just now.
I dont really have much to worry about for the rest of the year apart from my chinese A levels but i should be able to pass it without much problem. However, i still feel quite weird, like something is missing, im not feeling any sense of accomplishment at all. I know i shudnt feel like that, thrs many people who would kill to have my results. Im actually rather pleased with it but i still dont feel right. Maybe its not about my promo results or even PW, i just cant seem to place a finger on it!
Im feeling down n depressed, n i dunno whats the reason. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
)x~
9:00 PM
{{ Sunday, October 15, 2006
Its been a week since promos has ended... that means a week of worry... been trying to keep my mind of results with computer games and now im hooked again hmm... sigh...bleh. The past week of school was really slack, so went out a couple of times, caught a couple of movies.
Yesterday a friend of mine asked me this question "If u could make 1 wish to change anything in your life, what wish would that be?" Theres many things in my life i'd want to change, so i expected this to be easy to answer but it definitely isnt...
What if i made myself an instant billionaire? I'd be surrounded by other rich stuckup a$$****s and i probably wouldnt get to know the friends i have now...Ok, so money wont cut it... so what abt things that money cant buy? How about love? A wonderful wife whom i'd make a great couple with... nah.. im only 17! i dont want to get married! And what about the process of finding true love, i dont want to miss that out too!
What else can money not buy? SUPERPOWERS! Isnt it every kids dream to have superhuman powers? What if i wished 2 be superman... nah.. he has 2 deal with superevil freaks and he still has 2 work! And with powers im obliged to "save teh world" cuz my conscience wouldnt let me off if i didnt. I'd rather not put myself in such perilous positions.
After much thought about this subject (about 2 mins) i finally thought of something that i could wish for, good health. There is no point in having everything in the world... but having to lay on a bed all day, being frail n sickly...
*insomnia~)x~
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8:15 AM
{{ Sunday, October 08, 2006
PROMOS IS FINALLY OVER! Actually it ended on friday.. intended to go starlight after last paper but was really tired.. so decided to go back after dinner at carl's junior. I absolutely luv carl's junior except for the portion size! I have yet to finish 1 whole burger... quite a waste of money haha.
With the exams out of the way i finally have some time to completely relax.. hav some time to just sleep in. I started playing computer games, World of Warcraft in particular... just to kill time so i do go crazy due to excessive boredom. It has been working rather well, havnt had any emo fits yet but im keeping my fingers crossed.. i hope i dont get SOOooOOOoo addicted to it like last time.
Facades... a superficial appearance or illusion of something. Is there a sure fire way to see through a persons facade? Everyone puts on a mask and plays this game of life... some masks more ornate than others but still masks nonetheless. But whats the reason behind these masks... hiding our insecurities or just wanting to fit in? Wouldnt it be so much easier if nobody wore masks.. if you could instantly recognise someone for who they really are? Argh.. some people are just so hard to decipher.. I want X-ray vision.. not to look under girls clothes but to see through a persons mask!
)x~
11:00 PM
{{ Tuesday, October 03, 2006
A short "break" in between the exams.. I dont have any papers today so i get to stay home to "rest". The inverted commas are there cuz it isnt resting at all! Have to spend the entire day revising.. HOW IS THAT RESTING?!!? The last time i have felt this tired was after Round Island Kayaking Expedition(RIKE) during NCC times!! At this moment... im running on coffee... ive dozed off at my table while studying about 3 times already... and yet i still got a long way to go.
Argh!! Why is there Chem SPA tomorrow??? Why did they put in between our exams when they can simply put it next week? If its a SPA that doesnt require us to study for it at all then it isnt that bad.. but skill C/D? NoOOoooOOOOooo.....
Currently im taking a short break.. trying to complete my bio revision by 6pm.. left with cell division n diversity/evolution...
Normally, i'd try avoid blogging abt what happened during my day cuz such posts are usually so boring and meaningless... but lately with all the exam stress and all.. seems like i cant really be bothered to blog about any other things apart from complaining how badly my day sucked! At least promos is coming to a close soon... but then i'll have to start worrying about my results.. and probably start studying for supplementary exams... *sigh* I know i know.. i ought 2 be more optimistic but i cant!! I have already lost 40 marks for my maths test.. and i cant seem to understand my chemistry notes!! So i do have the right to panic!!
Good luck to everyone whos still taking their exams!
